TODAY'S DR. VISIT BRINGS BACK MEMORIES

So today I am going to my OBGYN for my annual exam and it has brought back memories of my little stinky face's birth. I relive that moment a lot in my mind. The look on my moms face when she noticed my baby's heart rate dropping. She tried telling me that nothing was wrong, but I knew that look. Then when the doctor rushed in and tried moving me into different positions, I knew something was wrong. His heart rate was dropping...and not recovering. Every time I think about this, I just cry. Thinking about how afraid I was and what my baby was going through. I was only 8 cm dilated, but they made me push 3 times. If the baby wasn't out in 3 pushes, they said I would have an emergency c-section. My pushes didn't work. I heard the doctor say that we had 20 minutes to get the baby out. At that point my mind was so overcome with fear, but everything was happening so fast. They rushed me to the OR and quickly prepped me for surgery. It seemed like forever to me and Aaron, for him to be able to be by my side again. I remember thinking, "Where is my husband?". They were getting my stomach ready and he wasn't there yet. As soon as he joined us, the surgery began and just a few moments later the anesthesiologist told us that "he's beautiful". Another boy! We were so happy. But then another few moments of fear; there was no crying. They held him up and he looked so blue. We were terrified. The doctor mentioned that the umbilical cord was around his neck 3 times. My poor baby! Finally, we heard that cry and for the first time that night, I just knew in my heart that everything would be okay. My peace quickly turned to fear again when my body went into shock from the surgery and I couldn't breathe at all through my nose. I was shaking terribly and couldn't breathe. It was several hours before I even got to hold my little baby. I barely even remember that moment because I was so exhausted from all that I had been through. Today I thank the Lord that my little melon has always been stubborn because I know that his stubbornness has a lot with him being here with us today.